My struggle stories will be memorized not as the story of warrior but of someone who needed to be felt worthy even it that meant choosing sadness. Emotions are heavy and if not sorted, they end up creating a confused individual like me who can’t differentiate between being thirsty or hungry. Even eating food and not drinking enough of water makes me feel guilty, which is to say I don’t known what I feel, when I feel and question everything I feel to analyses if my feeling are true and valid or not.